"Well, I'll admit I've had to polish myself off once or twice, but yes! When I RSVP to a party I make it my business to come." - Samantha Jones

Many are asking my husband as he is out and about, "How is Chan doing?" We are both happy to say, "Better than expected!"

Accessing my port for the first time for my treatment wasn't the best moment of my life but I made it through. After treatment #2, on Friday, I was able to sleep well for the first 2 nights, rest throughout the day, eat a couple of healthy meals, get to part of my Bunko night, say hi at a Christmas party, and take Lukas to the Christmas Celebration at the museum. Not bad for a girl who just had her second chemotherapy ;).

Thanks to my hubby, Deb, and my dad for taking extra time to spoil the boys and getting them out of the house for a hotel sleepover so I could rest and also spread some Christmas cheer.

My 2 hrs of sleep Sunday night might catch up with me today, but I have started to see what may be some of my reactions that may become part of my routine. Insomnia is a fairly common side effect partially from the steroids, partially from my mind trying to anticipate my next reaction so I can try to get to it before it gets me, and partially because we haven't had a completely healthy family at the same time for over 3 weeks amongst any of us.

I am really missing my kids at school. Hoping they are being respectful, kind, courteous, hard working. All the things they promised me in their beautiful letters they wrote me. I'm finding it really hard to not be there after the terrible events on Friday in CT to talk with them and help them feel safe.

I'm also missing the excitement Christmas brings in a school. The Christmas carols playing on our intercom in the morning when I enter, treats on the staff room tables, hearing of my kids holiday plans... Hoping to be there for the pancake breakfast for a hug and a pancake before everyone leaves.